Eric’s Blog

Arguably, the song of my generation.

We used to Rage Against the Machine (another band from my time) every chance we got.

This is how I feel right now. I want to fight against what I’m being told and I’m stuck. It’s not that the fight has gone out of me, I’ll always stand-up for what I believe in, but at the end of the day it comes down to what are you willing to do and/or not willing to do?

I’m not willing to put my career on the line; not for this. This isn’t worth it. That’s where the, “despite all my rage I am still just a rat in the cage” part applies. There may come a day when I do put my career on the line for what I believe in. This is not that day; I’m not willing to do that. So I guess I know what I have to do, suck it up buttercup and do what you’re told. You’re just a rat in a cage.

I hate feeling like this. The vacation we had planned got taken away from us. I worked through the two weeks I was supposed to be off and recharging. Then, I got sick, I worked through the two weeks I was supposed to be recovering. I guess none of that matters.

I miss my old job where I felt like the things I did everyday were making a difference. Now I just feel like a rat in a cage with a lot of pent up rage, but no way of letting that rage out. I could go bouncing off the bars of my cage for an hour or two and I would wind up in the same place I am now with the same problems I have now.

I need a break…